Jessie

Basically a Super Hero!!

2011-09-14T22:02:00.000-07:00

On an up note... I got a new job and for the first time in a LONG time I feel like I am doing something with my life. Something that means something. Something that will benefit others. I work as a Medical Dispatcher. For people with emergency help buttons that they can push when they need something. I get to talk to them and get them the help that they need. I have heard some awful things and unfortunate things already and I am sure it will only get worse as I work there longer, but it is worth it just knowing that they have someone there to help them. Some of these people are victims of Domestic Violence, or Elderly Abuse, or just people with severe health issues or old age. Sometimes its not always what I want to hear, and I leave down-hearted sometimes. But when you get a call that comes in and you can hear in their voice how grateful they are that they have someone, a link to the outside world. Especially when they had that hurricane and earthquake back east. There were people who were stuck in the dark for days and weeks and we were there only link to anyone. I come home at the end of the night with a roaring headache sometimes but it makes it worth it knowing that at the end of the day I helped someone who really needed it. Its nice feeling like you mean something to someone. And that I really can make a difference in the world.

You can't break a broken heart...

2011-09-14T21:43:00.000-07:00

Why is it that we miss the people that hurt us? That we long for those who left us? That the person who seems so right for us, is so wrong for us after all? Why is it that walking away is the hardest thing to do even when the other person is already gone? And how come can a persons words hurt so bad and haunt your every thought? I am trying to beleive in the good of Human kind, but sometimes when the people you care for the most walk out of your life it is so hard to find that silver lining.

There is a silver lining though right? Please, someone tell me it gets easier and that eventually I will stop hearing his last words in the back of my mind all the time... That the longing and feelings of hurt go away. I need to have faith in people again and I need to believe that not every relationship will end in complete and utter crap! I need to get this off my chest and move on. I understand that things happen for a reason and that our Heavenly Father sees the big picture. I just pray that eventually we end up seeing the same picture. The picture that ends with me finally being happy.

Rock your World...

2010-10-11T00:28:00.000-07:00

I just updated my photograpy blog with some new pictures, go check it out!!

Walk with me...

2010-10-11T00:18:00.000-07:00

Ever feel like you are alone? Ever feel like you have no one to talk to? Like no one understands or no one cares? Ever wonder if there will ever be a second set of feet prints by your side? I do... But maybe when there is one, it really is because someone is carrying us through life. I have faith that my Heavenly Father is by my side always and the one to carry me through when there is no one else! Its that same faith that gets me out of bed every day, I am grateful to be a daughter of God and to have a Father in Heaven who cares for me even when I maybe don't deserve it!

Something Important...

2010-07-14T01:06:00.001-07:00

So once upon a time I have a friend... and her name is SYDNEE and she had a problem, see the adversary would try to make her sleep all day and not hang out with me, then the adversary would tell her to try to keep me awake ALL night... I said "Syd, this is URGENT! I need to sleep" and she said "That's Great." and I said "Me thinky me dont likey when you talk like that" and she said "Side Note: Woof ;P" and then the adversary told us to be friends and read blogs!!! The END! WHOAAOAOAOA! WEEEEE DIIIIID IIITTTTT!

What do ya know?!?

2010-07-14T00:33:00.000-07:00

I guess I can consider myself pretty dang Lucky!!

Dancing on a land mine....

2010-07-07T22:01:00.000-07:00

I feel like I am dancing on a land mine... either I will get lucky or it will all blow up!

Ever felt like that? I do but with each passing day I feel a little more like I am gaining grounds to safety... With every passing day I feel a little less in danger of my whole world blowing up before me... and I feel like maybe, just maybe its finally my turn to get lucky in life and to get the one thing I want most! I have never been more grateful for prayers and fasting and the priesthood and I have never before had more faith in the idea that God really does have his hand in everything. He sees the bigger picture and all my faith is in that idea that he knows what is best for me and will lead me there when I am ready if I let him. I believe with all my heart that every experience, heartache and trial has lead me here to where I am now and prepared me for my future! I have never been happier or more confident in the decisions I am making! So hopefully the landmine I have chosen to waltz across will be nice and treat me well and not shatter my my goals and my whole world along with it!!!

J-E-L-L-O

2010-07-01T12:24:00.000-07:00

Friends are like Jello...

there is always room for more!!

Summertime Blues...

2010-06-22T21:34:00.000-07:00

Really I dont have much to write about, but too many people are complaining that it has been to long since I updated... So I will update you on my summer!

I cant believe its Summer! This seems insane to me, I feel like this year is going by way too fast! So I need to crack down... starting in July I am picking up tons of extra hours in school, and trying to bust that out, the sooner I can finish there and start getting paid to do hair the better! Also, I am working out my move to Washinton, hopefully it is sooner rather than later!

Summer so far has been full of fun activities, family gatherings, friends, road trips, birthdays and parties! Russell and Marie are moving to Guetemala next sunday for a few years so we are having a goodbye gathering for them on Saturday. I will really miss them, Marie has been the perfect addition to our family!

So why is my summer been blue? Cause I feel like the one person I want to be here with me basking in the sun is gone for the summer and it is making me very very sad, I miss him so much and cant wait til he comes back home! Everyday feels like Monday with him gone, so I just pray that he will be safe and watched over and come home soon!

Other than that, I have lots of plans still for this summer, camping, moving, swimming, more birthdays and fun fun fun! I love summer and wish it could be this nice all year long!

oh and my shameless plug-in.... I need credits at school and I can do pretty much anything, I get double credits for request clients so I would love for you to all come see me and set up an appointment, we can catch up while I pamper you and you would be helping me graduate! Hope to see you soon!

What an Honor....

2010-05-25T22:36:00.001-07:00

Their was a funeral today for a former firefighter, and my dad asked me to come take pictures, at first I was not excited about spending my afternoon at a funeral of a guy I didnt really know but my experience there was one I will never forget... I dont know if any of you have ever been able to experience a funeral for a former EMT/FireFighter but it is such a spiritual experience...

Rex Walker used to work for PG fire with my dad. He retired a few years back and has been working as a Forest Ranger in American Fork Canyon. On May 20th he was helping remove loose rock in front of Timp Cave and had an accident with a four wheeler that took his life...

The two men in the white hats are the Cheif and Second in Command

My dad with one of his close friends at the cemetery...

Some of the guys from the color guard they walked in front of and behind the casket...

Some of the firefighters paying their respects to Rex's son...

The Fire Fighters from PG, AF, and Lehi, and also the Forrest Rangers all lined up behind "Old Joe" and saluted as the casket passed...

Rex was also a biker, and so in his pressesion line there was the PG Fire Truck and Ambulance with their lights on, then "Old Joe" with the casket, and then 35 of his biker friends were lined up to ride their last ride with him...

This is "Old Joe" one of PG's old fire trucks that held the casket...

AF and Lehi Fire Fighters brought their ladder truck and displayed a flag for "Old Joe" to drive under... some of their crew was lined saluting the truck as it passed...

"Old Joe"

This was really one of the most respectful and spiritual ceremonies I have ever seen and I am so glad that I took the time out of my day to go and be a part of it. It makes me so happy to know that this is the kind of respect my dad will recieve someday and that there are people out there who respect the job that they do, these men put their lives on the line every day to protect us adn they deserve to be honored in such an amazing way! The most touching part of the ceremony was at the end of the closing prayer at the cemetery they sent out his final page... this is where all of the fire fighters turn on their radio's and dispatch sets off the ring tones and respectfully calls out this crew members last page of duty... It is enought to give you chills and is so amazing to experience. I am blessed and will never forget this and my thoughts and prayers are with the Walker family. Rex "RJ" will truly be a missed member of this community!

In the Pink

2010-05-25T21:53:00.000-07:00

A couple of weeks ago was the "Race for the Cure" Its a race and all the proceeds go to Breast Cancer Research. My Dad has a friend Tracy who he works with at the hospital and she asked him to be on her team and walk the 5k with her and her family. So he dressed up all in his pink gear and we went up to Salt Lake and it was one of the most amazing things I have ever seen. I was amazed! It was like a "Full House" moment when you just realized that for 2 hours it didnt matter who you were or where you came from or what you looked like... No one was too cool to be in pink, not even a group of bikers with dreads... all decked out from head to toe in hot pink. It was really a site to see! I was so touched by the stories and all the people. They had soo many people that all you could see for miles each direction was PINK!!!
My dad just starting the race...

This was one of my FAVORITE shirts and has a really funny story behind it...

Tracy is in the pink shirt, all the breast cancer survivors were wearing the pink shirts...

My dad with Tracy... She is so sweet!

Their group name was "In the Pink" this is the whole team together...

This was one of the sweetest things, It made me cry when I saw this girl, the sign on her back said "I am racing for ME" and she had a sign on her little baby's back that sad "I am racing for my MOMMY" and she carried him the whole way, It was just so touching, she couldnt have been older than me...

This lady was amazing, such a fun outfit!

haha my daddy Loved this team their shirt says "Fight Like a Girl"

This doesnt even come close to showing how many people were their but it was the best I could get... I had to stand on the back of a truck to get this and I still couldnt see the end of people in either direction...

My daddy is my hero, there is nothing he cant do or wont do for a friend, and as a survivor of cancer himself it was amazing to me to be able to see him a year later out walking and helping out a good cause... I LOVE YOU DADDY!

And Breathe....

2010-05-22T17:43:00.000-07:00

Life is a whirlwind of fun, stress, guilt, work, relief, pain and joy! Some of them blow threw more than others and harder but in the end, it makes life worth living. I wouldnt give any of it up, doesnt always mean I enjoy them but I enjoy the end result, its what makes me, me! I tend to bite off more than I can chew and I wouldnt change that for anything, I hate sitting around, I hate not being busy and not feeling like I accomplished anything. So I recently have started helping a friend and being a nanny for 4 children. The kids are great and I have really enjoyed it but after a lot of praying and scheduling I decided to start more hours at school as of June first so I will give up one task to do another.

I also started a business of my own, thats right.... I DID IT!!!! I now have a photography business named Sugar On Top Photography! So far it has been sooo much fun! I love being creative and doing photo shoots. Check it out!

And I saved the best news for last..... My daddy went and had his yearly check to make sure he was doing good, and he was clean as could be and is now in remission for 1 year and is still cancer free!!! That is one of the biggest reliefs of all, bring on the rest of the world, I can handle anything with the strength of my family! My daddy means the world to me and knowing he is good, makes me good, the rest doesnt matter!

Maycee Mae

2010-03-06T16:31:00.000-08:00

I bought a puppy! This impulse buy was quite an expensive one but you cant put a price on love!!! I found Maycee when Fuzz and I stopped to browse at Animal Ark on Thursday night.... I knew the second I found her that I had to have her! She is absolutely adorable! I am extremely exausted, taking care of a puppy is harder than I thought... bring on a baby but this puppy stuff is hard. She is 6 weeks old and she was born January 20, 2010. She is tiny and sweet! Bless her heart she is up every night at 2am and 4am hopefully that will wear off soon so I can get some sleep too! I love her though and my parents have fallen head over heels for her!!!

Fuzz Photo Shoot

2010-02-15T21:29:00.001-08:00

Today I did a make over on Fuzz then we went out and took some pictures...

I escaped death!!!

2009-12-31T10:18:00.000-08:00

OMGSH! So some people would describe me as overly "dramatic" I would say it is not true at all, I am more like overly "passionate" haha. Anyways that is my disclaimer for this post because last night, I narrowly escaped death!

(side note: this next fact has to be known to all of you or this post will make NO sense... I HATE the number 11, especially 11:11!!! I think it is evil and I am almost positive that that number will eventually have something to do with my demise!)

Ok, so last night I am driving home from my loverly friend Litto's house and it is pretty late, and the roads are pretty slick, like pure ice, no joke! I might as well have been driving on the 7 peaks Ice Rink! Anyways, so I am driving and I am a little nervous in the icy conditions but just then I look down and the clock in my car says 11:11 (OMGSH right?!? insert sqeual here...) So then I freak out in my head and I turn to look at my gages to make sure everything is "under control" and GUESS WHAT?!?! my mileage was 111 too! wow! I was like that has to be a coincidence, not a good one, but one just the same. So I am talking myself out of panicking and into breathing and just then song number 11 comes on and it was my funeral song!!! (that sounds weird but hear me out, so there is a song I always say I want played at my funeral and because of that and the fact that I am overly "passionate", I never listen to that song while driving a car... but yesterday I found a random music CD in my desk at work and took it out and popped it when I left) Ok so here I was sliding, not driving, sliding down state street at 11:11 at night with my mileage at 111 and the funeral song playing at track number 11! You would think I would change the song or push the minute button on the clock or do SOMETHING to better my odds in this situation, but I was too scared to lift my hands off the steering wheel, they were white knuckle gripped at 10 and 2!! Needless to say I made it home ok! whew! I know you were all worried there for a minute!!! But the creepy part is, is that I was telling my daddy this story this morning and he said that he rolled over in bed to get a drink last night and looked at the clock and it was 11:11 and he thought "I should text Jessie", but then he refrained in case I was driving... (he knows I am not the best at waiting til I park to read texts haha we are working on that) But anyways, it was traumatic, I think that Julia Roberts should play me in the movie ;)

One year older... I only wish I was wiser too!

2009-10-19T13:56:00.000-07:00

Well another year has come and gone. I was trying to think about my feelings of the last year and how I feel like it went... It seems to have been relatively successful, but as anyones life, it had its ups and downs!

Overall I cant complain, my health has been good. I still have a job, even if I don't always like going, a job is still a job! I started Beauty school... something I have always wanted to do and finally got the courage to do it this past May. I love it too, every second of it!!! My family is doing well... Dad is doing much better.

I made a lot of really good friends. Some of them have been the best friends I have ever had... ever! One of them moved away and we are still best friends... she is more like family, and will ALWAYS be a part of my life no matter how many states lay between us! One of my other best friends and I ended up drifting apart sadly and although we aren't as close now, I will never regret the days we spent together... he taught me so much about me and who I am. I still think the world of him and hope that even when we aren't together as much that things are well with him. I have had a lot of good friends that have been there for me... I have rekindled lost friendships and made existing ones stronger and made many new ones. I don't know where I would be with out the love and support of my friends! They are sometimes the only reason I get out of bed somedays!

I have had a little heartache and A LOT of laughter. I have had cried and held family and friends as they have cried. I have sang and laughed and looked for the positive in some sad times. I have learned that life doesnt stop so neither can I and life is what you make of it.... so I have vowed to make mine a damn good one!

I have made plenty mistakes over the last year and learned many life lessons... but most of all I have spent a lot of time figuring out who I am and where I am going. I love where I am going with my dreams and my goals and I feel good about my future! I am ready for another year. I am ready to have new challenges and new adventures. I am sure there will be many more nights where I cry, but I am positive that I will have more happy days than not. I will make more friends and share another year of holidays with my family... A girl cant ask for more than that! I need to count my blessings cause I have been blessed with more than I deserve!

Rarr!!!

2009-09-18T09:58:00.000-07:00

In class we learn how to be creative, think outside the box. It is fun to try new things and now that I feel more comfortable doing hair and make-up I love trying to come up with new and interesting things to try. It is fun to see what you can do... Yesterday Meriam and I were on our way home and I had the brilliant idea to give myself a mohawk when we got home. HAHA well that turned out AWESOME so we decided to do Meriams hair too. Then we needed freak awesome make-up to match out new cool do's! Once we were all done up, we convinced my mom to join the fun. It is cool to see what you can do. We of course need pictures afterwards and it was the perfect opportunity for a photo shoot. haha I never turn down a photo-op! So here is what we got, not only was I happy with how our hair and make up turned out, I loved the pictures too. We had so much fun!!

Goodbye is never easy!

2009-09-15T14:05:00.000-07:00

My best friend in the whole world left on Sunday. She got a job in Washington and so she packed up and headed out for her new adventure. I am so proud of her but I am having Jamie withdrawals... We found out that she had 2 weeks before she had to be there so we made sure to squeeze in as many fun things as we could up until she left! We did a lot of fun things. Some of my favorites were 80's dancing and her goodbye party it was fun to spend her last night with her and some of our closest friends...

I was thinking yesterday of all the fun times we have had together and all the things we did together. We had some heartaches and some tears we also shared everything with each other. I have never had a friend like her and we will be friends forever... a few states will not pull us apart.. I love you Jamie Jerms... Good Luck with everything!!!

Just say it...

2009-07-31T14:27:00.000-07:00

If there is anything I have learned in my life it is that life is short. People come and go, days move on. Things happen but life doesn't quit. Life doesn't stop. Giving up is not an option. After today, there will always be a tomorrow and then today will be nothing but a yesterday. What happened yesterday cannot be undone. It can not be taken back. It cant be added too. Life is too short not to say how you feel. A friend and I were talking about this the other day and she reminded me that if you have something to say, if you have a compliment to give, if you have feelings to share, then share them. What do you have to lose?!? But if you don't say what you want to say then you don't know when the opportunity to say it will ever come up again. Time passes by so quickly. You never know when your words to someone will be your last. Say you care, tell someone you miss them or tell someone you love them. When you think of a compliment or have the urge to talk to someone that you may not be on the best terms with, do it. I have learned that the only thing I have ever regretted is not saying how I feel when I feel it. I have never regretted being honest with my feelings or my thoughts. This is one of my life goals. Life is too short to keep things to myself. Life is too precious not to share how I feel. Cause if you don't then the next thing you know all if you have is a bunch of piled up yesterdays and regrets. Be who are. Say how you feel. Life is too short not to. I love life and although it is not always easy it is worth it, and it goes on no matter if I am dealing with it or not, so I might as well make the best of it. Make today count, so that yesterday counted then make tomorrow better than today and you cant go wrong! (This song my friend showed me... I love it!) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YZ0z86LmXBM

Summer Nights...

2009-07-17T12:56:00.000-07:00

Summer has been so busy and so fun! I have had a lot going on. Work is still work... but school is going great!! I love it. I have had so much fun and not to brag but I am pretty good at what I do! I am now out on the floor taking real clients every weeknight from 5 to 8. So come see me! I get extra credits for request clients so if you call and request me that would be awesome! It has been so much fun and I feel like I learn the coolest new things every day.

Other than work and school. I have managed to squeeze in some playing as well. We have gone up the canyon a few times for Bon Fires and Barbecues... they are always entertaining. I have hit up a few good movies, been out on some dates, and many nights out playing sand volleyball with my friends. It has been a lot of fun. I got a season pass to Seven Peaks and I went there yesterday with my most favorite people. It was nice to get out and have a day off with nothing but have fun with the people I love to be with. We had a blast! But other than that I just try to be outside as much as I can in the few short hours that I have free. I love summer and am sad it is passing as fast as it is! But there is still plenty of time left to have some serious fun in the sun and I plan on doing just that!

Long time coming....

2009-06-22T12:36:00.000-07:00

This past month was extremely busy and flew by so fast. I cant believe the year is more than half over.... I am still trying to figure out where the first half went! I have had some fun, along with some work, school, and stress. Here is what I was up too....

First my daddy, they removed his cancer and his pancreas was clean so he will not have to have chemo or radiation!!! YAY!!! That was the best day and biggest relief I have ever felt! And not only was it Father's Day but we celebrated his 50th birthday last week too! Happy Birthday Daddy! I love you! We threw him a surprise party at the fire station. Here are some of my favorite pics from the day...

Me and my Daddy at his party...

This is just me playing on the fire truck.... haha

We also celebrated a baby blessing of a friend. A family friend Rosa, had a baby, and I have been watching her every weekend. She is such a sweet baby and we have adopted her and her momma into our family. It was fun to see her be blessed.

She loves her Aunt Jessie =)

My best friend Jamie, has always wanted to fly a plane. I have a cousin who is a pilot and owns a plane and so I talked to him and he agreed to take us for a ride, but better than that, he let her fly it, like actually fly it!! She took off and everything... haha I have never been so scared in my life, lol but it was so much fun! It was so fun to see her so happy! It was a really cool experience and I was so glad that I was there to share it with her...

We have had a lot of fun, has been long and exhausting but I would do any of it over again! School is going really good, One more week and I am a junior and will be out on the floor part time taking clients.... (Come see me!!) School has been such a blessing and I have enjoyed every second of it. I have had a lot of fun experiences so far and have a lot to look forward too. That is the update on my life....

Even Angels Fall....

2009-05-14T10:40:00.000-07:00

My dad is my hero, he is my strength and he is the pillar that holds me up when I thought I would fall. I never thought he could fall, my dad might be the most amazing person I know. He works 2 jobs, and not because he has too, but because he wants too. He has always sacrificed himself for others, he works now at the hospital and on the ambulance for PG Fire. He saves lives, he sacrifices his time, his safety, and himself every day to help and save others.... so what do you do when the one who saves lives, needs saved?!? This is the thought that has been on my mind for the last month. What do you do when the one person you never thought could fall starts to crumble before your eyes?

About 3 weeks ago, my parents came over to talk to us, I could tell something was wrong and they sat us down and told us that they found out my daddy has cancer. They are still running tests so we don't know exactly the extent or the kind or the treatment plan, but that was the news. I hate seeing my dad so vulnerable and scared, I hate seeing him hurt and worry. I never thought I would be strong enough to deal with such a trial. But I have found that the Lord will never give you more than you can handle. I don't know how well I am handling it, but I am handling it... I never understood what people meant when they said they felt numb until that day and for the week after that, that is all I was capable of feeling, numbness and nautiousness. I felt like the whole world was moving and I wasn't going anywhere. But once things started progressing I somehow snapped out of it and have been blessed with strength that I need to be there for both my mom and my dad. I thank my Heavenly Father for that strength cause I know with out him I would not be as strong as I need to be.

I know he will be ok. I know this is not the end. In his words "I am going to kick this, and kick it hard, I am not done here" I know how strong he is. I know this will be a trial and a long hard road for my family but I also know that we will all come out of this stronger. How do I know this? Because that is what my dad taught me, he taught me that what doesn't kill you makes you stronger!! I am so grateful for his strength and for his optimism. He is my Hero, my Angel, he is my Daddy!

So Fun!!

2009-05-12T09:39:00.000-07:00

I have been in school for just over a week now and I love it! Our first section has been esthetics so I have not worked with hair yet, but I have learned how to give Manicures, Pedicures, and some basic things about acrylics. I love it. I thought the pedicures would freak me out but I actually enjoy giving them. And of course we practice on each other, and I especially love getting them!!

This week we are continuing in esthetics and we are learning facials and waxing and make-up application. I love everything so far, I don't feel like I am in school. I feel like I get to go do something I enjoy for 4 hours a day! It is nice to find something that I am actually good at and be able to do it and enjoy it!

The only problem that I have run into sos far is that I am used to getting home at night and having 7-8 hours to play.... so now when I get home at 9 every night I forget that that is no longer the case. I still feel like I need to play for 7 hours instead of only 3 and I have been staying up WAY too late. I need to work on that one cause 5 12 hour days in a row do not work well when you go to bed at 3 every night!!! But other than that I have no regrets about starting when I did! I know this is where I am supposed to be and I absolutely LOVE it!

Never too late...

2009-05-05T10:37:00.000-07:00

So I have had a dream ever since I was a little girl, to go to Beauty School and learn to cut hair, when I was little I used to cut all my Barbies' hair, and I would cut chucks of hair off my teddy bears and stuff, I have always loved it! I was going to go to school right after high school, but ended up having health problems and I had to take a different course. But because of those health problems I didnt have much of a social life either...

Well once I moved out on my own and have been doing my own thing I still have been stopping myself from going, mainly for the reason that I was enjoying my social life too much. I was making up for lost time, playing and chilling with friends. But I finally decided that now is the time to make my dreams come true!

I signed up for Bon Losee and attended my first class last night. I really enjoyed my teacher and it is very one on one and will be so much fun. I love it! I know it will be hard sometimes, I will work from 9-4 then have class from 5-9 monday through friday for the next 2 years... BUT it will be so worth it when I am done. And I know that I will still have time to rock the social life after 9 everynight! Lets be honest.... no one parties before then anyways.... especially with out me!! HAHA! I am really excited tho and am so ready to rock the next stage of my life!

Festival of Colors

2009-03-31T13:21:00.000-07:00

We went to the Festival of Colors at the Hari Krishna Temple on Saturday. It was a lot of fun. I enjoy learning about other people's cultures. They have a lot of dancers perform and then they explain what the ceremony means and then they give the word to throw the chalk. It is a lot of fun once the dust settles and you can breathe again lol. Here are some pics of the event!

What makes a good road trip???

2009-03-23T14:15:00.001-07:00

So we went to Idaho to visit a friend of ours (she's kind of a big deal). And I feel like there are many factors that make a road trip successful and entertaining!!! Take note that the following is what is needed for a fabulous road trip.....

The Vehicle... We borrowed Todd's moms van. It might have been one of the most amazing vans I have ever been in. It was one of those ghetto vans from like the 90's that have green carpet from top to bottom. One of the ones with drapes in the windows and lap belts that the elderly drive when they tour the country... it was pretty fabulous! Stepping into this van was like entering a different world... anything was possible in this van... you might even say it was a magical van!! LOL!

The People... The 5 of us that went of course added to the entertainment factor. There was my BFF's Jamie and Brooke and then there was Brooke's boyfriend Todd and her little brother Scotty. I feel like we all brought a little something to the trip! We pretty much jammed out in the van and sang our little hearts out while pigging out on junk food the whole way there (very necessary)!
The Company... When we got there we met up with Princess Michelle and her BFF's Mesho and Stevo and the 3 of them played with the 5 of us all weekend... it was magical!
The Activities... We pretty much rocked the socks off of Idaho!!! We played at the park. We went to Walmart (for a very long time) and while we were there we found books, so we took turns posing like the covers... very fun! We also all invested in a bandana which we proceeded to wear the rest of the day (we are cool like that!!) Then we grabbed some lunch, hit up the grocery store, then headed into Idaho Falls. There we went Go Cart Racing and played at the arcade. We went to another park and then ate dinner at our personal fave, Red Robin, before heading back into Rexburg. We got back and put in a movie and crashed. Sunday we went to church, came home, and made dinner then napped slashed watched a movie. Then the finale... we taught our friends the fabulous tradition of "Rock Star Shots"... which brings me to my next point....

The Drama... We all drank A LOT before we left and then we said good bye and hit the road! Well it wasn't too long into our drive when James and I decided that we needed to go potty and he made Todd pull over! Once we were back on the road and feeling good we were cruisin' and singing when all of a sudden we feel our fabulous van start to slow drastically and Todd announces "I think we are out of gas, I forgot to look down at the gage before we left" So we were able to roll off the side of the road just before the engine shut down and we died on the side of the road.... luckily, when I say I have people, I have people! I have family that lives about 40 minutes from where we were broke down and they were sweet enough to come save us and give us gas.... I freaking love them!!! But that is not even the drama of the night... while we waited for them we had about an hour... and in that hour my sad little blatter had time to fill back up, well if you know me, you know that I DO NOT PEE IN BUSHES! However, it got to the point where it was that, or die from exploding!! So I take my girls with me and we venture outside the van... we got about 5 feet into the desert land when Brooke says "You don't think there are rattle snakes do you?" Well "H" no I am NOT pee'ing out here now!!! So back by the van we stand (well they stand, I am doing the potty dance) and we thought of a plan B. Might I add that it is snowing and freezing! I decided to squat right there by the back tire while my valiant girls stand watch, blocking me.... well I INEVITABLY pee on myself and my pants cause I have never been good at this "squatting" thing! So here I am on the side of the highway, in the snow, covered in pee, laughing our butts off and I am changing my pants! It was very entertaining. Our rescuers showed up eventually and helped us out and we were once again back on the road... we made it home... late... but we made it and I had so much fun!!!!

And there you have it... the ingredients for a road trip worth remembering!!!

Van and Gas= $150

Food, Fun and Activities= $65

Standing on the side of the highway in the snow, half naked and covered in pee with your best friends= PRICELESS!!!!!

Russell and Marie's Wedding

2009-03-03T14:16:00.000-08:00

My Brother got married last weekend. It was such a fun day. Here are some pics!

Red-Hot!

2009-02-24T15:40:00.000-08:00

Haha I am sure that it doesn't need to be said that I am full of myself a little bit, but I had to share this freaking sweet picture that my friend took of me the other day! I loved it! LOL! She has this cool camera where she can pick up certain colors and put the rest in black and white. So she took this and I think it turned out way cool. Check it out......

Self Advertising...

2009-02-12T12:48:00.001-08:00

If you have ever met me you would know that I like me! I am a pretty big fan of myself! LOL! Just kidding but I did make some super cute scrapbook pages for work and I wanted to share them with you. There is a freebie and then the rest of the kit are on a really good sale price til valentines day. The artwork was done by one of our amazing artists Celeste Rockwood-Jones and then I put together some quick pages that are great for Valentine's. So here they are and dont judge me for my shameless tie in! Happy Valentines day!

Here is the freebie you can get if you click here. To see the rest of the pages click here. To see what I did with the pages and what you can do click here!

Friends....

2009-02-10T14:39:00.000-08:00

I love them! I have made such good friends and I seriously have to ask myself how it is I lived 23 years without them in my life. I heart them and appreciate them so stinking much. It is nice to have a few close people to laugh with and cry with and just be with any day, any time! It is interesting at this age of life the trials that we go through. Sometimes they are similar and sometimes they are completely different. I have recently watched some close friends go through some hard times. With school, work, family, boys, friends. There is so much going on in our lives these days and sometimes it gets overwhelming!!

One of the hardest things for me is to watch a close friend struggle, whatever the struggle may be, it is hard to watch them hurt! I just hope that even though I may or may not have experienced exactly how they feel that they know I am there for them. I recently have had some hard situations that I have been trying to deal with and I know that they are truly there for me and would be anytime I needed them. I heart them and thank my heavenly father so much for the friends that I have been blessed with!

In August 07 when my contract ended at the last place I was living, I was looking for a new place for me and my roommates to go, I had looked at like 20 different apartments and had called about 20 more than that and I was going to this place across the street from where I live now. I looked there and wasn't impressed. Then as I was leaving I saw my complex. It looked really nice and out of my price range and I thought to myself, even if I could afford it they probably don't have an empty apartment for all 4 of us to move into (that had been my main problem). I decided to stop but was already set up for disappointment. I walked in and talked to the lady and I had the STRONGEST feeling that I was supposed to live there. I got the pamphlets and contracts and went home to talk the roommates. I pretty much told them that even if they didn't move there I felt like I was supposed to and I was going to! We all ended up moving there and I have been there for a year and a half and will resign my contract when it is up. I feel like although I am not certain what the purpose of living there was that there indeed was a purpose! I think that I was supposed to move there to meet the friends that I have made. I don't think I could have made it through the last few months without their love and support! It is such a testimony of following promptings and being in tune with the spirit!

Super Hero!

2009-01-30T13:08:00.000-08:00

Meriam came stayed with me for a week while her mom was out of town. We had so much fun. We played and went ice skating, ate treats, played rock band, and watched lots of chick flicks! I am the best "mom" ever! LOL! But one of my favorite times was Sunday afternoon we were bored and so we decided to dress up like Super Heros! You might be thinking we are too old for that and that we are slightly lame, but don't knock it til you try it! We dressed up and then we went out in the town. We went and saw my grandparents and they were quite entertained. It was a really fun night. We laughed really hard. I loved having her there and think Lori needs to go on more business trips so that we can play again!

I should strike out!!!!

2009-01-21T14:37:00.000-08:00

The GAME.... It stinks! I swear that no matter how you play, you are never playing it "right". Maybe that is the point! Maybe, it is some cruel joke that I have not caught on too... Seriously though, if you don't play it, then you don't get dates. But even if you do play it, you get screwed over! Either you play "too" hard to get and ruin your chances or you don't play hard enough and then you are pushy and they aren't attracted to you anymore! What the heck is a girl suppose to do??? I don't get it. Who made up the game anyways? Who decided what the "rules" are? Maybe, I should just make up a NEW game LOL! The whole dating thing makes me laugh. I don't know who actually enjoys it. Did you enjoy dating? I don't think I have ever met anyone who would give anything to be back in the dating world. Seriously, I know it is part of life and I will learn from it blah blah blah but it is hard!! It is NOT fun! I think I have this 'gift' of attracting or being attracted to guys that might as well be girls. For real... can you say drama KING?!? Most of the time girls get blamed for the drama and to be honest that is usually true and fair... but I swear some dudes are worse than girls. It is ridiculous!!! WOW! So tell me, what is a girl suppose to do when she can't seem to play the game right and she is liking a guy who might as well be a girl?!? LOL!!!

Finally some Fun!!

2009-01-08T12:09:00.000-08:00

I have been working like crazy and I have been trying to get some sleep in when I was not working so I have not done too many fun things lately! But last night we went bowling then to AppleBees and it was so fun! It was great to get all of my friends together and go out and do something fun! We had a blast. We bowled guys against girls and it was 4 on 4. We made a bet that the loser bought chocolate cake and Applebees for the winners after. Well, not that I need to even say it, but the girls KICKED BUTT! We rocked their socks! First game was pretty even, second game was no contest. Jamie got a turkey (3 strikes in a row) and she ended with a 170 and Nicole got a hambone ( I think that is what the guy called it, but that is 4 strikes in a row) she ended with a 183! It was INSANE! They did awesome and when it comes to bowling, I have 2 new heros! LOL! We went to Applebees after and we went around with the waiters and sang Happy Birhtday to people, needless to say , it was a VERY entertaining night! I had so much fun and it was great to see friends I had not seen in a while!

Updates....

2009-01-08T10:43:00.000-08:00

I have not blogged since before Christmas. I have been sooo busy with work and the holidays that this was the last thing on my mind, but now that things have settled down, there have been some exciting things happening. First, my baby brother got engaged! He and Marie are getting married on February 21st. We are very excited to welcome her to our family and get to know her better. You all will love her she is very sweet! I took their engagement pictures. Here is the happy couple!

Also, my aunt had her baby on the 4th and I am very excited! I have been waiting for baby Courtney to come and I am very excited she is here. Nicole is doing great and the baby is adorable. I am going to get better pics but here is one that I took the day she was born...

I am excited for both new additions to our family!!!!!

Mannassas Virginia

2008-12-15T14:55:00.000-08:00

My work sent me back east to Mannassas to do a Cricut Demo at an AC MOORE store back there. It was so much fun! I have never been east of Colorado and I have never flown on a plane before so this was quite and exciteing event for me. It was an experience I will never forget. I loved flying and enjoyed the traveling alot. I landed in Mannassas where they had a limo service waiting to take me to my hotel. I really traveled in style and loved every minute of it! Kayla flew out and met me there. We went to dinner and played at the hotel friday night. Then I went and did my Demo on Saturday and met a lady named Sheila who was Demoing with me. She was fabulous!!

After the Demo we went to the Mannassas Mall and did a little shopping and then we went to dinner and back to the hotel! Sunday morning we woke up EARLY and we checked out of the Hotel and drove into Washington DC where we took a 3 hour tour of the City and got to see a ton of amazing places....

This was the Washington Monument. It was one of the first things we saw as we drove into town.The capital building was beautiful and it was soooo big!!

I also loved the Lincoln Memorial. It was amazing!

I would LOVE to live in a house like this. The streets were amazing!

I also got to see the white house. I didnt think I would ever get the chance to see it and I did and I loved it! It was really cool!

The rest of the pictures are just of me and me and kayla chillin in DC. I was glad she came with me so I could spend the weekend with her! We had a lot of fun!

I loved every second of it! I will get to be going back this next weekend and I am very excited!

Other Fun Stuff....

2008-12-11T14:48:00.000-08:00

What else have I been up to? Well most of you probably dont care but since this is kind of a journal to me, well it is better than nothing and I am way to tired in the wee hours of the morning that I now call bedtime to actually write in a journal, so I use this in a way as a
journal-ish thing! LOL! Anyways, We went to temple square for FHE and it was so much fun, we watched the new Joseph Smith movie (which isnt new, but I had not seen it) and I LOVED it! It was so good, I cried through the whole thing, the poor guy next to me kept asking me if I was ok or if I needed anything, I think it was making him uncomfortable. We walked around and visited the reflection pool and it was gorgeous and luckily on the night we went it was not that cold. It was perfect!

We have also been PARTYING it up! Our friend Lauren had a birthday and I LOVE birthdays, we really use any excuse we can to stay up all night and party! It was a blast! All though I will admit that even though we threw the confetti outside, somehow the little peices found their way into my bra and set up camp with out my knowledge, so that night when I went to change it was like a celebration all over agian as they all came flying out.... now my room is covered and they really dont like to vacuum up nicley! LOL!

Another fun night was when we went to a BYU basketball game and we tried all night to get up on the big screen and finally we made it! We were up Rocking the chicken dance and we got on the big screen it was so fun! Also, pretty sure Cosmo was hitting on us, I just hope it was a guy in there (you never can be sure) It was a really fun night!
That is pretty much what I have been doing lately, I work then play and then dont sleep then I play some more, then I usually work and play after that!!! LOL! One of these days I am going to go to bed and not wake up for at least 2 days! That would be so nice... but I would miss out on so much fun!

Allred Concert

2008-12-11T14:33:00.000-08:00

I am so a week late writing about this which makes me super sad cause it was the highlight of my month so far!!! I have just been insanly busy at work and play that I have not posted it yet.

Ok so DONT JUDGE ME!! I wanted to get a picture with John so bad... and my friend introduced me to him and I shook his hand and I visited with him and everything but I was not feeling that cute and I felt stupid cause the rest of the group we went with knew him already so I felt like if I asked for a picture that I would be the stupid fan! So I pretended to be cool and didnt get one, thinking I would get one when I went to his exclusive concert on the 20th. BUT I have a business trip on the 20th and I will be out of town and will miss the concert so I may have missed my chance to get my pic taken with the man I love... big time frowny face!!!!

However, that sad news aside, it was a great concert we were FRONT ROW and it was like he was singing right to me! haha I loved it! He truly is AMAZING!!!!

This second picture is from his encore. When came out they turned out the lights and he had a spotlight on him and asked everybody to sit down and he sat on the end of the stage and we had a sing-a-long for his encore... It was so cool! LOVE HIM!

My new Collection

2008-12-02T16:33:00.000-08:00

so.... I decided that I am starting a new collection, really it is cause I have these and I want to share them so I can brag a little. lol! I have had the oppurtunity to meet and get a picture with some fabulous famous people in the last year and when I say some... I mean two haha and soon to be three hopefully! But I think it is super cool and wanted to share!

This first one I took about a year and a half ago at Warp Tour, it is with Matt Young he is the lead singer for Amber Pacific! It was super cool to meet him, out of all the bands we heard that day his was by far my favorite!

This next one I am WAY more excited about, my friend Brooke grew up with Cove. He is the lead singer for the band Saosin and I love them too. They are amazing. We went to his concert a few weeks ago and it was amazing, we were on the "guest list" so we got to walk up to the bouncer and he let us in (super cool!!!) then after the concert Cove came outside to meet up with us and we hung out with him for about 20 minutes. He was so nice and we got to get a picture with him....And Last but CERTAINLY not least.... I get to meet Allred on thursday and I am hoping I will have a picture with him to post soon. I dont know if you guys know him but I blogged about him a while back... he is sooo pretty! I heart him!! He was the one I was in love with and was planning on stalking... but it is all about making friends with the right people. One of my friends knows him and is taking me to his concert thursday and he is going to let me meet him after... SO EXCITED!! So be looking forward to that soon! LOL!

Royal Bliss Concert

2008-12-02T14:25:00.000-08:00

I went to the Royal Bliss concert the day before thanksgiving. I have wanted to see them for a year now but they have not been playing in town when I can go. But this time they were and I was stoked. I went with my bff Brooke and a few old friends Jed and Craig. It was a blast. It was at a bar so we were surrounded by drunk people and I dont think I have EVER smelled that bad after I left but it was one of the BEST concerts I have ever been to. I love love love them and loved every minute of the concert!

Jazz Game!!!

2008-11-18T16:45:00.000-08:00

So last night we got a big group of 14 people and we went to the Jazz game! It was a blast and became more of an adventure than we anticipated! We left at 5:30 and we went to the Sandy Station to ride tracks. We had a blast on the train and got dropped off right at the game. We found our seats which were nearly at the top but they we only $10 tickets so we didnt complain and the game started... it was so much fun. We had some Suns fans in the group and the Jazz fans had the glory of the win! After the game we went to he Applebee's at the gateway and we had reservations so we had to hurry, well I was wearing my 4 1/2 inch heels (i know, who does that? but I had to becuase I only had my tall levis clean and I had to wear pants haha) SO I had to run from the wrong side of the Energy Solutions Center over to the Gateway in 4 1/2 inch heels which I have to say takes quite talent and I ROCKED IT!!! We ate some dinner, me and James and Colt ate family style and we all consumed WAY too much food! Afterwords we went out and realized that we missed the last train to Sandy so we had to wait there for about 30 min and we had fun playing on the train tracks (dont tell our parents lol) then we rode a train to murray where we had a ride waiting to take the drivers to the Sandy Station to get the cars and go back and get the group! Once we did that and got home it was 1:30. The night turned out longer than we thought but over all it was a great night and I wouldnt have changed a thing!!! I love my friends so much!

Am I Crazy or just Insane?!?

2008-11-06T05:19:00.000-08:00

First rule to know if you are going to be friends with me.... anybody??

Here is a hint (or the actual rule).... Don't talk to me before 10 AM if you expect me to be nice to you. haha

Seriously though, I am NOT a morning person... AT ALL! I despise the mornings and really it is a well known rule to not even think about it before 10 AM. At work they used to tell new people they hired not to talk to me til then, I am pretty sure it was part of their training as a new employee!!

BUT here it is 6:20 AM and I have been to work for a half an hour all ready, am I CRAZY or just seriously insane?!? I am so tired and I am going to be lucky if I can make it through this day! Why am I at work at 5:50 in the freaking morning you ask??? Good question! Apparently I decided that i am too good for sleep.... not!! I LOVE my bed and my sleep more than anything in the world which is why I decided to forego going to bed last night. I was helping a friend (I was called upon late last night and being the good listener and sweet person I am I was happy to be of service) and so when I was done talking to this friend it was like 1:30... (not too bad, sounds about like my usuall winding down time) but then I ran upstairs for "just a minute" haha and didnt come back down until 3:30. So, at this time I decided to think rashionally and weigh my options. I could go to bed but once I was in we all know i wouldnt wake up til noon which would make me WAY late for work and I cant afford to miss the hours, or I could clean my messy room that I have been to busy to get too... then shower and go to work early... which of course means getting off early... which would include me napping! I took option 2, I figured if I came in late then I would get off late and my night is booked with exciting unmissable events! So.... here I am at work at 5:50 in the morning trying hard already to keep my eyes open (hoping it will get easier when other human life shows up to keep me company) and wondering if I am really as INSANE as I feel!!!

Woo Hoo!

2008-11-03T16:06:00.000-08:00

I just found out that I took first place in the creative catergory for the costume contest at work! I was shocked but very excited! I went as Juno (I loved that movie and got the idea from my brilliant boss) she came up with the costume and I have to give her credit! But the role was so fun to play! They take our photos at work for those who dressed up, which is pretty much everyone, and here are a few of my favorites...I also entered a treat for the treat contest and took third place! I saw this adorable lizard cake on Tammys blog a while back but spooked it up a bit for the halloween contest!!!

Say What?!?

2008-10-29T12:33:00.000-07:00

It has been a while since I posted cause to be honest I dont know what to say! I dont know what to do with my life and therefore I dont know what I want and I am confused out of my mind at the moment due to recent events and so I have just been sitting back waiting for some kind of something to come along and give me a little direction in my life. I think I am going through like a mid life crisis or something, except I dont plan on dying at 46 so I am thinking maybe like a quarter life crisis (does that exist?). Anyways I have tried to keep myself busy the last few weeks as to not go insane thinking about the things in life I dont want to think about! Keeping busy isnt too hard to do, I threw my BFF a birthday party and it was an all day event that turned out great (this is her...)
I have also just been working alot and going to the gym. But the big thing that has been helping me keep my sanity is that I have changed my attitude through scripture study and prayer and I decided that it is the Lords will not mine... I need to have faith that the Lord has my best interest at heart and he knows what is in store for me and will help lead me to those things if I am faithful. Which can sometimes be hard when you want things in the moment but I have a testimony that the Lord is on my side and loves me. It is times like these when I am extra grateful for this knowledge and feel so blessed to have this gospel in my life!

Birthday Bash!

2008-10-17T11:36:00.000-07:00

Birthdays really are my favorite thing and I had hyped up my birthday party so much that I was slightly worried it would be a bit of a let down. BUT that was the best freaking birthday bask EVER! I had so much fun and pretty much have the best friends and family in the world... they all did sooo much to make the day special. It was a birthday I will NEVER forget! They let me sleep in and then get all cute before we went to lunch at CPK

Then I ran some errands (I had too, it was a day off work and I had to get things done while I had the chance) and while I was gone my roomates did an AMAZING job and decorating for my FIESTA birthday party.

Then the party began, we had tacos and chips and salsa and it was so fun to just have all my friends over to party and celebrate with me.

And last but not least.... we went to the Haunted Forest (I really do LOVE that place) this time was different though... some of my friends thought it woudl be funny to go ahead in the group and tell every monster slash bad guy in the place that i was coming and it was my birthday.... so about half way through one of the monsters was like "which one of you is Jessie?" FREAKED ME OUT!!! He knew my name and from that point on, every single one of them asked which one was Jessie and then personally and brutally would attack and freak me out! It was totally scary but ridiculously fun! I dont have a voice today from screaming.... but still, SUPER FUN! It was great!

SUPRISE!!!!

2008-10-14T12:24:00.000-07:00

I will say that if I am high maintanance slash self absorbed slash incredibly picking slash demanding about one thing.... it would be my BIRTHDAY! I LOVE birthdays even when they are not my own. I love them so much that I celebrate all of my friends half birthdays too because in my opinoin, a year is a long time to wait! SO I have not only been awaiting my birthday (which isnt coming fast enough) but I have been celebrating my birthday week to make the time go faster! My awsome sweet friends made me a birthday week chain that I get to pull of one ring everyday til my birthday and they have also been so sweet and kind to sing me a new song every day up to the big day itself, I also get love pre-birthday texts and messages on facebook (I am super spoiled)! I have been basking in the attention and birthday glory! Just when I thought I had it made... I came back from my break at work and my super sweet boss had made me a cupcake cake and decorated my office! Thanks Natalie! Here are some pics: the cake was adorable!

The tip of the cupcake was a gumball, so after we ate the cake.... I had to take a moment and bask in my "birthday bubble blowing" glory! (The camera was not quite quick enough and we only got the before and after) HAHA!

Thanks everyone! Ya'll sure know how to make a girl feel loved and so far this has been the BEST birthday in the history of my birthday and I have not even had my birthday yet!

Totally Random Week.....

2008-10-09T16:49:00.001-07:00

I had the most random week. But at the same time I have had so much stinking fun that I might kill over soon from the incredible lack of sleep! I have tried to keep up but I am about dead... so here are the highlights, then the details, in the last week I fell in love, ended up looking 8 months pregnant, found me a backup husband, got my pants scared off on a slighlty awkward but totally fun date, and had one main goal (to which is not yet been accomplished!) WOW!

Here it goes.... you all ready for this??

I fell in love! I went to a concert with a friend last Saturday and was really only going to hang with this friend cause I never get to see her! I had never heard of this singer we were going to see but then I got there and literally fell in love with him.... He was so pretty I wanted to cry!!! then he sang and played and the guitar and he and only got hotter! Serioulsy I now own alot of his songs and he is my new favorite, not only is he incredibly pretty but he is sooo talented... I love the U2 song with or without you and he does and amazing cover of that song! So this is my new love! (oh FYI his name is John Allred)I would say that one of my weaknesses is that I HATE being told that I "can't" or "won't" do something. So I ended up at Maceys grocery store in quite a pickle! My sister has this pillow that seriously looks like a pregnant belly. And I was wearing it to show/explain part of my Halloween costume idea (which you all cant know about yet shhh!) any ways my friend Jamal came over and we were going to go to Macey's to get some treats and he made the comment that I needed to take the pillow out cause I can't wear it to the store with him.... well then I said "I can't?!?" and he said "well you can, but you won't!" Challenge extended so we went to the store, he kept thinkning I would take it out in the car but I wore it with pride through our 30 min shopping extravaganza! He was totally embarrassed and to my luck I only ran into 2 people that I knew and they are close enough friends to know it was a joke! Luckily we found some cute BYU onsies at the store and took a cute picture to document the occasion!Being a "cat lady" is no longer an option! Unless my back-up gets married! HAHA I got to talk to one of my very best friends Dave the other day. I miss him so much! He moved in April to Iowa to go to Med school and I am super having Dave withdrawls. We were chatting on the phone the other day and we started talking about 'back-ups' and we decided that if we are both single in 7 years when we turn 30 then we are going to Seal the Deal (in the temple of course!) hopefully that will not be the case... not because I dont adore him but I just dont plan on being single in 7 years.... but who knows right?!? It is always good to have a plan. This is my favorite picture of my favorite Dave! I stinking adore him! He is and will always be a big time BFF!

Last night I went to the haunted forest on a double date with one of my cousins and a friend of mine and a friend of his. We decided to set each other up and go out. Super fun! My date was a little awkward (bless his heart) but it was still so fun and lucky for him.... we went to the haunted house after dinner and I was scared out of my mind so he got to have me on his arm all night! HAHA! I forgot how much I love the Haunted Forest and this time of year (thanks Maleen for opening my eyes to such a fabulous place)! It was a good time! (no this was not my date, in case any of you were confused)

And last but not least, I have ONE goal right now! And I have had no luck :(. The other day I decided that it is VERY important that I have a theme song!!! You know, something that when you hear it you think "that is totally Jessie!" but so far no go. I have had a lot of suggestions which were (mostly) all appreciated but I just have not found that "one" that is MY SONG! I am thinking of giving up and writing one soon haha! But I will not give up and I will continue on my quest til I find the perfect song for the purpose! (ooh maybe I will have my new love write me one!!) but seriously if anything comes to you feel free to share cause I wont stop til I am satisfied!

LOL! I am done with my little rant... I told you my week was random and if I could just sleep through next week I would but I can't cause I gotta work and I would miss my birthday which would just be TRAGICAL!!! ;)

Beautiful Day!!!

2008-10-07T15:02:00.000-07:00

I had the oppurtunity to go to the afternoon Sunday Sessoion of conference. I have never been to conference there before so that was really cool. To make it more special is that I got to go with some friends and family. Especially 3 of my cousins. One of them Abe, just got baptized in August, Sami is getting baptized when he turns 18 in November, and Meriam who also wants to be baptized when she turns 18 (but she has a few years). They were so fun to watch as they experienced that for the first time. The spirit was so strong in that building that I felt blessed that they were able to be there and I just pray that they were able to feel the spirit that was there and that they can learn for themselves and gain a testimony of our prophet and his teachings. I was so touched by the talks this year. Especially the one by Elder Cook who talked about trials and challenges and how we need to depend on our Heavenly Father, that was just what I needed to hear at this time! I loved this weekend and I loved the hours I was able to spend with some of my favorite people! Here are some pictures from our afternoon at Temple Square... (I tried to do small pics but you couldnt see... :( so I just picked 10 of my favs, I know it is alot but we had fun and I wanted to share!)

I rock the block!!

2008-10-03T11:55:00.000-07:00

So, my friends have been trying to get me to come play broom hockey with them every thursday for weeks... I have found numerous excuses not to go. I just have not been in the mood. But last night I decided that it was time. I so wanted to go kick some broom hockey butt. Me and my friend Litto got all warrior, and painted ourselves for the occasion. Neither of us had ever played before and we were expecting to stink up the ice! BUT they let me be goalie (I think they were just going to for a minute and then make me move) but turns out.... I am a BRICK WALL! Theme song for the night.... "Na Na Na NA Cant stop this!" We were undefeated and it was an "ace" game. I blocked at least 30 shots and we won 18 to 0! Thats right... I think it was the face paint... got them all inimidated!!! SO fun. I will be going next week and I am stoked about it... so fun!!

Switch it Up!

2008-10-01T12:42:00.000-07:00

Incase you didn't notice in the last post... I am now a brunette! Never done that before! I was sitting on Saturday listening to the amazing talks at the General Releif Society Conference, when I realized that if I did not take control of something and make some kind of change in my life... I was going to go nuts!!! My life has been a little crazy these days and I feel like they are things that I have no control over... so I was thinking "what do I have control over that I can change"... well my hair is the first thing I thought of... I wanted to go brown. So I went to the store that night and got some dye. I attempted it myself and it didnt turn out too bad! HAHA! But the color wasnt quite right... so round two... last night I decided to fix it and went two shades darker! Unfortunatly it doesnt make me any smarter though.... I am a redhead, pretending to be brunette but still incredably blonde! HAHA! But for now it might just keep me sane enough to keep me happy! Sometimes a change is all you need!

Do it for the kids....

2008-10-01T11:48:00.000-07:00

We just finished the Jim Thornton Provo Craft Spanish Fork Tifie Organization children in Congo need new school desks Awareness Fun Run Race for the Cure. At least that is what we named it (for those of you who are Office fans... we were inspired by MICHEAL SCOTT DUNDER MIFFLIN SCRANTON MEREDITH PALMER MEMORIAL CELEBRITY RABIES AWARENESS PRO-AM FUN RUN RACE FOR THE CURE.) Anywho.... Provo Craft has an Organization called Tifie, that donates to Children in Congo. It is a great Organization. Well today we had a fundraiser to raise money to buy the schools some desks because the children are currently sitting on the floor to learn. For every lap around our building that we walked we earned $5 for the cause. It is a half mile around the building. Me and my boss Natalie and her fabulous fetus Peanut made it around 7 times. It was so fun to get away from the computer for a bit and do something for a good cause! Then they fed us lunch, so today has been pretty good so far! And for the record.... I am SO NOT hitting the gym today this totally counts as my workout!

Batter Up!

2008-09-26T17:13:00.001-07:00

Aww, being young and single… take it from me, being young and single is not all it is cracked up to be. It actually makes my brains hurt! I have been hearing A LOT about the “game” lately and have been informed that I am not playing it correctly. I have learned that if there is one thing guys are good at, it is using their “manly sports analogy” to explain dating to us women folk. Surprisingly, I have learned that I am equally skilled at this and can stump them in their own game. I am quite proud of that fact. All guys do this, the way my father put it to me a while back, “You don’t need to switch teams, you just need to stop being a benchwarmer for the team you are on” Thanks dad! Fabulous advice! So, that is what I am going to do. In a conversation on Sunday with a cousin of mine, who will remain nameless, we were talking about how guys don’t always realize that they found a good catch. They are too stupid to see that they caught the ball and can then take themselves out of the game, so they drop the ball and keep playing. (I personally think they need some coaching). I was then informed that there are different kinds of catches, all good catches but maybe not the one that a guy is hoping for, like fish in the sea… all pretty colors but guys have different tastes. So then our little “sport analogy” went to a “fishing analogy” to which I replied… Why are some guys stupid enough to “catch and release” a great girl? Then they are just left on the side of the river hoping for someone else to bite when they already had a great one that took the bait! He said that, “Some guys like rainbow fish… some like trout, some like gold fish, so if a guy catches a great clown fish it is a great fish but he lets it go hoping for a rainbow fish.” My only rebuttal to that was this, "how does a guy know that he doesn’t like clown fish if he never gives the clown fish a chance?” Well, I won the argument cause there was no come back to that one! I may be the clown fish but some guys are just dumb “basses”! ;) That is my question now though…. What makes a person decide they can’t be with a person if they never gave that person a fair chance?!? We have all done it guys and girls! We are so caught up in what we “think” we are looking for that we don’t give the ones we have a chance. I know I am guilty of this and that is something I need to be aware of. But after this discussion, I have come to a conclusion, I decided that not only am I going to get in the game, I am going to be “MVP” of the game!! I don’t know how well it will work for me but sitting on the “sidelines” hasn’t gotten me too far either… haha so, wish me luck cause I am up to bat!

In your dreams!

2008-09-23T15:13:00.000-07:00

Don't you hate bad dreams? I don't, well I never did. I have never really remembered my dreams, seriously I will remember less than 5 in a year. Once I wake up... I have no recollection of what it was that was keeping me entertained while in my sleep world. I think this is kinda sad that I dont remember my dreams but at the same time, nightmares or bad dreams never seemed to be an issue for me. Until now. I think I have been having bad dreams becuase every night for the past week and a half almost I wake up in the night sweaty and freaking out. I am in tears and I am upset and breathing heavy, then I when I wake up in the mornings I have been waking up in terrible moods. I wake up upset and mad and on the verge of tears. I dont know if I am having the same dream over and over or if it is different ones. Whatever it is, it has been getting me pretty upset and I have no clue what it was even about. NO recollection at all. Well needless to say the lack of good sleep for the week has got me in a semi grumpy mood and I have a headache that wont seem to go away :( Last night I technically got 10 hours of sleep but woke up 3 times and only feel like I got 4 hours tops! It is weirding me out! I am hoping that whatever the dream issue is will resolve itself soon so I can get some sleep again.

First Post....

2008-09-22T16:14:00.000-07:00

I am a blogger now! I wasnt going to be but I had to make a blog as a portfolio for work and I was making a header for it. I made two and couldnt decide which one to use, and I decided to use them both, so I created a blog for me and one for work so that I can use both headers... I do what I can to solve a problem! HAHA! I dont know what I have to write about on a blog but I am sure I will think of something now and again. It is kind of fun to catch up with people and see what they are up to!