One year older... I only wish I was wiser too!

Well another year has come and gone. I was trying to think about my feelings of the last year and how I feel like it went... It seems to have been relatively successful, but as anyones life, it had its ups and downs!

Overall I cant complain, my health has been good. I still have a job, even if I don't always like going, a job is still a job! I started Beauty school... something I have always wanted to do and finally got the courage to do it this past May. I love it too, every second of it!!! My family is doing well... Dad is doing much better.

I made a lot of really good friends. Some of them have been the best friends I have ever had... ever! One of them moved away and we are still best friends... she is more like family, and will ALWAYS be a part of my life no matter how many states lay between us! One of my other best friends and I ended up drifting apart sadly and although we aren't as close now, I will never regret the days we spent together... he taught me so much about me and who I am. I still think the world of him and hope that even when we aren't together as much that things are well with him. I have had a lot of good friends that have been there for me... I have rekindled lost friendships and made existing ones stronger and made many new ones. I don't know where I would be with out the love and support of my friends! They are sometimes the only reason I get out of bed somedays!

I have had a little heartache and A LOT of laughter. I have had cried and held family and friends as they have cried. I have sang and laughed and looked for the positive in some sad times. I have learned that life doesnt stop so neither can I and life is what you make of it.... so I have vowed to make mine a damn good one!

I have made plenty mistakes over the last year and learned many life lessons... but most of all I have spent a lot of time figuring out who I am and where I am going. I love where I am going with my dreams and my goals and I feel good about my future! I am ready for another year. I am ready to have new challenges and new adventures. I am sure there will be many more nights where I cry, but I am positive that I will have more happy days than not. I will make more friends and share another year of holidays with my family... A girl cant ask for more than that! I need to count my blessings cause I have been blessed with more than I deserve!

Rarr!!!

In class we learn how to be creative, think outside the box. It is fun to try new things and now that I feel more comfortable doing hair and make-up I love trying to come up with new and interesting things to try. It is fun to see what you can do... Yesterday Meriam and I were on our way home and I had the brilliant idea to give myself a mohawk when we got home. HAHA well that turned out AWESOME so we decided to do Meriams hair too. Then we needed freak awesome make-up to match out new cool do's! Once we were all done up, we convinced my mom to join the fun. It is cool to see what you can do. We of course need pictures afterwards and it was the perfect opportunity for a photo shoot. haha I never turn down a photo-op! So here is what we got, not only was I happy with how our hair and make up turned out, I loved the pictures too. We had so much fun!!

Goodbye is never easy!

My best friend in the whole world left on Sunday. She got a job in Washington and so she packed up and headed out for her new adventure. I am so proud of her but I am having Jamie withdrawals... We found out that she had 2 weeks before she had to be there so we made sure to squeeze in as many fun things as we could up until she left! We did a lot of fun things. Some of my favorites were 80's dancing and her goodbye party it was fun to spend her last night with her and some of our closest friends...

I was thinking yesterday of all the fun times we have had together and all the things we did together. We had some heartaches and some tears we also shared everything with each other. I have never had a friend like her and we will be friends forever... a few states will not pull us apart.. I love you Jamie Jerms... Good Luck with everything!!!

Just say it...

If there is anything I have learned in my life it is that life is short. People come and go, days move on. Things happen but life doesn't quit. Life doesn't stop. Giving up is not an option. After today, there will always be a tomorrow and then today will be nothing but a yesterday. What happened yesterday cannot be undone. It can not be taken back. It cant be added too. Life is too short not to say how you feel. A friend and I were talking about this the other day and she reminded me that if you have something to say, if you have a compliment to give, if you have feelings to share, then share them. What do you have to lose?!? But if you don't say what you want to say then you don't know when the opportunity to say it will ever come up again. Time passes by so quickly. You never know when your words to someone will be your last. Say you care, tell someone you miss them or tell someone you love them. When you think of a compliment or have the urge to talk to someone that you may not be on the best terms with, do it. I have learned that the only thing I have ever regretted is not saying how I feel when I feel it. I have never regretted being honest with my feelings or my thoughts. This is one of my life goals. Life is too short to keep things to myself. Life is too precious not to share how I feel. Cause if you don't then the next thing you know all if you have is a bunch of piled up yesterdays and regrets. Be who are. Say how you feel. Life is too short not to. I love life and although it is not always easy it is worth it, and it goes on no matter if I am dealing with it or not, so I might as well make the best of it. Make today count, so that yesterday counted then make tomorrow better than today and you cant go wrong! (This song my friend showed me... I love it!) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YZ0z86LmXBM 

Summer Nights...

Summer has been so busy and so fun! I have had a lot going on. Work is still work... but school is going great!! I love it. I have had so much fun and not to brag but I am pretty good at what I do! I am now out on the floor taking real clients every weeknight from 5 to 8. So come see me! I get extra credits for request clients so if you call and request me that would be awesome! It has been so much fun and I feel like I learn the coolest new things every day.

Other than work and school. I have managed to squeeze in some playing as well. We have gone up the canyon a few times for Bon Fires and Barbecues... they are always entertaining. I have hit up a few good movies, been out on some dates, and many nights out playing sand volleyball with my friends. It has been a lot of fun. I got a season pass to Seven Peaks and I went there yesterday with my most favorite people. It was nice to get out and have a day off with nothing but have fun with the people I love to be with. We had a blast! But other than that I just try to be outside as much as I can in the few short hours that I have free. I love summer and am sad it is passing as fast as it is! But there is still plenty of time left to have some serious fun in the sun and I plan on doing just that!

Long time coming....

This past month was extremely busy and flew by so fast. I cant believe the year is more than half over.... I am still trying to figure out where the first half went! I have had some fun, along with some work, school, and stress. Here is what I was up too....

First my daddy, they removed his cancer and his pancreas was clean so he will not have to have chemo or radiation!!! YAY!!! That was the best day and biggest relief I have ever felt! And not only was it Father's Day but we celebrated his 50th birthday last week too! Happy Birthday Daddy! I love you! We threw him a surprise party at the fire station. Here are some of my favorite pics from the day...

Me and my Daddy at his party... 

This is just me playing on the fire truck.... haha

We also celebrated a baby blessing of a friend. A family friend Rosa, had a baby, and I have been watching her every weekend. She is such a sweet baby and we have adopted her and her momma into our family. It was fun to see her be blessed.

She loves her Aunt Jessie =)

My best friend Jamie, has always wanted to fly a plane. I have a cousin who is a pilot and owns a plane and so I talked to him and he agreed to take us for a ride, but better than that, he let her fly it, like actually fly it!! She took off and everything... haha I have never been so scared in my life, lol but it was so much fun! It was so fun to see her so happy! It was a really cool experience and I was so glad that I was there to share it with her...

We have had a lot of fun, has been long and exhausting but I would do any of it over again! School is going really good, One more week and I am a junior and will be out on the floor part time taking clients.... (Come see me!!) School has been such a blessing and I have enjoyed every second of it. I have had a lot of fun experiences so far and have a lot to look forward too. That is the update on my life.... 

Even Angels Fall....

My dad is my hero, he is my strength and he is the pillar that holds me up when I thought I would fall. I never thought he could fall, my dad might be the most amazing person I know. He works 2 jobs, and not because he has too, but because he wants too. He has always sacrificed himself for others, he works now at the hospital and on the ambulance for PG Fire. He saves lives, he sacrifices his time, his safety, and himself every day to help and save others.... so what do you do when the one who saves lives, needs saved?!? This is the thought that has been on my mind for the last month. What do you do when the one person you never thought could fall starts to crumble before your eyes? 

About 3 weeks ago, my parents came over to talk to us, I could tell something was wrong and they sat us down and told us that they found out my daddy has cancer. They are still running tests so we don't know exactly the extent or the kind or the treatment plan, but that was the news. I hate seeing my dad so vulnerable and scared, I hate seeing him hurt and worry. I never thought I would be strong enough to deal with such a trial. But I have found that the Lord will never give you more than you can handle. I don't know how well I am handling it, but I am handling it... I never understood what people meant when they said they felt numb until that day and for the week after that, that is all I was capable of feeling, numbness and nautiousness. I felt like the whole world was moving and I wasn't going anywhere. But once things started progressing I somehow snapped out of it and have been blessed with strength that I need to be there for both my mom and my dad. I thank my Heavenly Father for that strength cause I know with out him I would not be as strong as I need to be. 

I know he will be ok. I know this is not the end. In his words "I am going to kick this, and kick it hard, I am not done here" I know how strong he is. I know this will be a trial and a long hard road for my family but I also know that we will all come out of this stronger. How do I know this? Because that is what my dad taught me, he taught me that what doesn't kill you makes you stronger!! I am so grateful for his strength and for his optimism. He is my Hero, my Angel, he is my Daddy!