Even Angels Fall....

My dad is my hero, he is my strength and he is the pillar that holds me up when I thought I would fall. I never thought he could fall, my dad might be the most amazing person I know. He works 2 jobs, and not because he has too, but because he wants too. He has always sacrificed himself for others, he works now at the hospital and on the ambulance for PG Fire. He saves lives, he sacrifices his time, his safety, and himself every day to help and save others.... so what do you do when the one who saves lives, needs saved?!? This is the thought that has been on my mind for the last month. What do you do when the one person you never thought could fall starts to crumble before your eyes? 

About 3 weeks ago, my parents came over to talk to us, I could tell something was wrong and they sat us down and told us that they found out my daddy has cancer. They are still running tests so we don't know exactly the extent or the kind or the treatment plan, but that was the news. I hate seeing my dad so vulnerable and scared, I hate seeing him hurt and worry. I never thought I would be strong enough to deal with such a trial. But I have found that the Lord will never give you more than you can handle. I don't know how well I am handling it, but I am handling it... I never understood what people meant when they said they felt numb until that day and for the week after that, that is all I was capable of feeling, numbness and nautiousness. I felt like the whole world was moving and I wasn't going anywhere. But once things started progressing I somehow snapped out of it and have been blessed with strength that I need to be there for both my mom and my dad. I thank my Heavenly Father for that strength cause I know with out him I would not be as strong as I need to be. 

I know he will be ok. I know this is not the end. In his words "I am going to kick this, and kick it hard, I am not done here" I know how strong he is. I know this will be a trial and a long hard road for my family but I also know that we will all come out of this stronger. How do I know this? Because that is what my dad taught me, he taught me that what doesn't kill you makes you stronger!! I am so grateful for his strength and for his optimism. He is my Hero, my Angel, he is my Daddy!

So Fun!!

I have been in school for just over a week now and I love it! Our first section has been esthetics so I have not worked with hair yet, but I have learned how to give Manicures, Pedicures, and some basic things about acrylics. I love it. I thought the pedicures would freak me out but I actually enjoy giving them. And of course we practice on each other, and I especially love getting them!!

This week we are continuing in esthetics and we are learning facials and waxing and make-up application. I love everything so far, I don't feel like I am in school. I feel like I get to go do something I enjoy for 4 hours a day! It is nice to find something that I am actually good at and be able to do it and enjoy it! 

The only problem that I have run into sos far is that I am used to getting home at night and having 7-8 hours to play.... so now when I get home at 9 every night I forget that that is no longer the case. I still feel like I need to play for 7 hours instead of only 3 and I have been staying up WAY too late. I need to work on that one cause 5  12 hour days in a row do not work well when you go to bed at 3 every night!!! But other than that I have no regrets about starting when I did! I know this is where I am supposed to be and I absolutely LOVE it!

Never too late...

So I have had a dream ever since I was a little girl, to go to Beauty School and learn to cut hair, when I was little I used to cut all my Barbies' hair, and I would cut chucks of hair off my teddy bears and stuff, I have always loved it! I was going to go to school right after high school,  but ended up having health problems and I had to take a different course. But because of those health problems I didnt have much of a social life either...

Well once I moved out on my own and have been doing my own thing I still have been stopping myself from going, mainly for the reason that I was enjoying my social life too much. I was making up for lost time, playing and chilling with friends. But I finally decided that now is the time to make my dreams come true!

I signed up for Bon Losee and attended my first class last night. I really enjoyed my teacher and it is very one on one and will be so much fun. I love it! I know it will be hard sometimes, I will work from 9-4 then have class from 5-9 monday through friday for the next 2 years... BUT it will be so worth it when I am done. And I know that I will still have time to rock the social life after 9 everynight! Lets be honest.... no one parties before then anyways.... especially with out me!! HAHA! I am really excited tho and am so ready to rock the next stage of my life!